So close

Bought some Heineken today for the first time in a year ..... I was so happy .... walking around the supermarket smiling to myself ....... beer now safely in the fridge chilling .... ready for new years day .... soon my old friend .... soon

The Final Countdown

As the clock ticks away & the time for that first pint in a year beckons ..... I am reflecting on the various stages of want that I have experienced during the year ..... Jan saw me like an alco licking the dregs from the barrel as I went into cold turkey from the christmas over indulgence .... feb saw me steady myself as I convinced myself that that this was the right thing to do .... March made me sick ... I wanted a beer so bad ... particularly around Cheltenham ..... April & May ..... brothers wedding celebrations .... dont ask .....felt so bad for not having a drink with Stef to celebrate ( so Irish but so true ) .... June ... having survived wedding festivities .... convinced myself that I would never drink again ..... July ... slapped myself for thinking such thoughts ..... August .... my birthday .... really wanted beer .... Sept .... hate beer never drinking again ..... october .... wanted beer so bad .... felt guilty for threatening to give it up for good ..... Nov ... started to mentally prepare for xmas with no booze .... Dec ... questioned the merit of charity work for personal sacrifice ...... really want beer .........really really want beer ....... I will definitely think differently about drink in the future & know that I dont need it to have a bit of craic .... but there are times when the only thing required is a beer .... I will cherish these times even more in the future .....

Closely followed by

Ok ........ so there might be a little bit of this too ............ as the body re-adapts to booze .................. I dont wear glasses ........... so will have to steal a pair ........... maybe these are beer goggles ????